Week 13 Emerging

I write this post on the blessed night of Christmas Eve. We spent the last few days dealing with family member challenges, a sick cat and the ongoing saga of my class. So I’m taking this space to show how MKMMA has worked for me.

On the family member; I know Og says “…hear not those who weep and complain , for their disease is contagious.” That’s not so easy when it’s a member of your family in crisis. Our cousin and her three children were evicted last Wednesday; so it was not just a matter of her complaining it was serious. It’s winter, it’s Christmas and they are homeless. The very first thing we offered was for them to come stay with us but she is in Virginia and did not think her car could make it to Jersey.

As you can imagine, there are people in the family who want to talk and gossip but never offer any concrete assistance. Normally we would have had to filter through those people in order to get to the proactive people; not this time. This time we immediately deflected the gossips and successfully connected with the doers. At the same time, a refund check, that I was not expecting, arrived In the mail. On an aside, this check became beneficial for the family member and my own household. Getting back to the story, within one day of the eviction we had secured temporary housing for them and sent grocery money. The problem is not completely solved and, of course, it is now up to our cousin to start getting her life together but immediate crisis averted.

Then there is my highly negative class. They still must be reminded to treat themselves with love and I am in no way expecting overnight results, after all we were the same way before MKMMA, negative thoughts and self talk was normal behavior. The week was challenging because they are still questioning my authority because I was originally assigned to them as a substitute. Nevertheless, the week ended on a positive note when my most challenging student asked to speak to me after class. She then told me that she was letting outside problems affect her school work; and that she realized what she was doing was actually working against herself after our class sessions and is now ready to take responsibility for her work, and to consider her class time more important than the drama going on with her ex-boyfriend. I was shocked! We are on break now, I can’t wait to get back.

As for me, I was in a serious funk until our webinar last Sunday. It was as if Mark, Davene and Trish were hanging out at my house monitoring my progress. From the beginning of the webinar to the end I was struggling not to have a full fledged bawl episode. When Mark talked about moving past our business block by doing our reading then throwing it all away, the tears could not be contained. It felt as though I was kicked in the chest and he had only mentioned it. You see, I’ve been working diligently on everything the class had to offer and I’ve had that feeling of the cement breaking away; actually feeling the new Joanne coming through. The thought of throwing away all of that work was crushing. However, it made perfect sense. What was the use doing the work if we are not going to apply it. The magic is in action. Not thinking alone, not planning alone, not changing your mindset alone; it is in everything together and then putting it in action.

I can not begin to adequately describe the joy I feel in relating to you what’s been going on in my life. It is even more keenly felt during this time of celebration in the birth of Jesus. This is the time of year when people begin to evaluate how they have spent the old year and look forward to what the new year will bring. We in MKMMA have the added benefit of knowing how our year is going to be because we intend to create it. There could not be a better way to greet the new year than with love, wisdom and persistent self determination. Thank you all for sharing in my journey and thanks the Mark, Davene and my guide Bob for providing and guiding the vehicle which will change my life. Have a very Merry Christmas!

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Week 11 Passing it on

This week challenged my mental diet a little. I had never before noticed how negative my students are with each other and with themselves. I found that as we went over homework assignments or reviewed for the quizzes; I heard a constant barrage of “this is stupid” and worse yet, “I’m stupid,” “I’m an idiot” and on and on.

I had to take some time to speak to them about the things you say to yourself. I found a great pamphlet about changing negative self talk to positive, designed specifically for students, and handed that out to each class. Then, I put quotes on the board each morning to remind them to be careful of what they say to themselves.

Every time I heard it I tapped the quote on the board. We have gotten to the point that when someone says something negative, others in the class point it out. We are going to develop a system to reward self talk with the goal of eliminating it altogether. The students are actively engaged in blocking the evil voice and living in success.

I can’t say if it was a direct result but their test scores were higher this week and we are only in week two. Next week is mid-term, so I’m counting on the positive environment in my room to carry over to their mid grades too. Each module is only six weeks long so I’ll need to add some more layers to help it stick.

Week 10 emerging from my cave

This week feels like I’m an alien from another planet or a cave woman woken from an icy slumber. You see, this week I went back to work. I’ve been in my safe little MKMMA cocoon for 8 weeks now and quite happy there. Now, I’m being bombarded with reality. I gotta say it went well.

Monday night, I attended our local business meeting for our network company and decide to practice the words in my DMP “I promise to step out of my shell and talk to everyone around me.” So, I begin talking to the associate next to me. Guess what? She is struggling too, she and her husband are close to me and my husbands age and also have a few personal things in common. We talked until it was time to close and made arrangements to meet for dinner on Friday.

Tuesday, my second day back, a group of students were standing and talking outside of my classroom door. The language would have made your hair curl! I took a deep breath and walked out to tell them to watch the language and be mindful that class was in session. As I walked away one of the girls started talking back, making rude comments. I stopped, slowly turned, looked at the other girls (ignoring the loudmouth) and said, “I honor you ladies for being respectful and behaving like the young women you are here to become. Thank you.” I could see through the window of my classroom that they were not sure how to react to that. I make love my greatest weapon. – Mandino

Wednesday, continuing with my DMP, I spoke to three people about the business and gave them my text leader info. Later that day I received notification that one of them registered on my pre-launch site. “I remember the ancient law of averages and I bend it to my good.” – Mandino

Thursday, I woke up at 6am on my own, without the assistance of my alarm clock. I delve into my reading and decide to do my Sit then instead of in the evening. For the very first time since we started this experience I completely cleared my mind. True, it was a very short time, and as soon as I was conscious of it the “talk” began again but, I had it. Just that moment, but I had it! “All possession is based on consciousness. All gain is the result of an accumulated consciousness.” – Haanel

My Friday was pretty fantastic too. This week helped me confirm that the cement is breaking away, my consciousness is diligently working in the background to manifest the experiences best suited to my daily outcomes and I’m linking all over the place.